I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine; it's like SO LO.


Sunday, August 1, 2010, 7:28 PM
having fun one step at a time

Summer vacation is slowly melting away, I didn't go anywhere fun yet. But starting from now, there will be a lot of family activities, like going bowling&WATER PARKS :D! I have been going to my cousin's house along with my sister to help her watch her twin babies :D! Pretty boring there cause all I do is watch them to make sure they're safe, but that's all.

I know I pretty much sound like a boring person right now LOL. Well I started to read my AP Bio book, only got to the 4th page xD! But AUGUST 1st is here, have to start it like seriously!

Last week on Friday - Today (Sunday), I have been gone from the internet, cause my cousin from Kentucky came over, there was somewhat a lot of messages for me, I feel the love hehe. I should that more often! Make people miss me more :D! LOL Saw the message Sha gave me, you're like so cheesy dude :o. 

This sucks, not that I don't like my baby nephew&niece just I saw them last week (expect for Thursday), now starting this week I have to see them again :(. This is going to be hard for me to do my summer homework D8! BUT OWWWWWW. Lately my teeth has been really hurt, it feels the gum of the teeth is like burning? I don't know how to describe it, but when I have my mouth close my top teeth is like biting the gum on the bottom, it's annoying the heck out me =-=. -sighs-

- Any Pig

Friday, July 23, 2010, 1:42 PM
Isn't being friendless better?

I know I have been talking a lot about my friend issues. I just talk Sha Sha or at least some time before this... She sounds so independent, because she have another life. I don't know... it sounds like she doesn't even need a friend, I'm not bad talking about her, but like the saying "family comes first then friends" that's her approach in life. Well she has been studying, because she have her religious school&other stuffs her family needs her to do, I do understand. I just wanted her to have fun and go outside, explore her city a little bit more. Also get time to relax going outside with her friends and stuffs.

I guess one of the issue is money. IT'S ALWAYS MONEY! Money kills everything... It let us limit our possibilities...

This comes to my other thought. I NEED A JOB. Well everybody needs a job. Having job not only allow you to know more people and earn money. It also teach you to be independent. I should start looking for a job, starting next summer, but I'm not sure... since I maybe on vacation. I will figure it out, somehow...


TO SHASHA
I know one day Sha Sha will read this, and I just want you to know that if I'm ever a bother to you, or I have changed or something, please tell me. I know family is important and I respect that, but you should notice your friends, cause they will be a part of your life somehow. I know, I know you do have a lot of stuffs and struggles, let your friend share some part of it too!
That's the meaning of friendship... Last time you said you wanted to go somewhere cause you're bored, I gave you options, but I know you're a person who always change your mind, but please don't... I care about you Sha Sha, as my friend, please don't distant you away from me :(...


In conclusion, I'm just questioning myself, isn't it better friendless? I really don't know, but I think friend is a key to your heart, without them, I'll be lonely and depressed :(. I have been in a depression before and I hope I'll never get it again, in those times my heart and mind really hurt. Maybe that empty feeling will come again someday, and I know I won't like it...

- Any Pig

PS: Change song from Depapepe - Summer Parade to Jason Derulo - Ridin' Solo :)

Sunday, July 18, 2010, 4:00 AM
You have to die once, before you die again.

I never knew that life can be this hard.... well school is going to start in just more than a month. I haven't have my second traffic yet, which sucks, cause I want to get over with it. I'm too scare on the road though... especially on local streets.

Because I have been a bum so far from the beginning of summer, I should really start to do something in the house while I'm still in it. Mom and dad keeps complaining how the house is all dirty, so today I went and clean the basement with a broom since the vacuum is broken.... next I have to clean the second floor then the third floor... I then have to fold all of the clothes, clean my room.

Once I'm all finish with that, I will design this purse I made, which I happen to stop finishing it. Almost forgot! Do my summer homework! Damn... this summer will suck as hell! I don't really have anything to do but just play tennis and that's mostly it... Let's hope around August when Tennis tryout is happening me and Sha Sha will make in the team together! Even though I'm living in a city with full of excitement there's nothing to do here.

I want to travel to different places, I really want to. Junior year is coming and studying schooling will be very hard for my lazy self... If I'm able to go to China this Spring 2011, which I'm not sure of... cause of the studying of the ACT... let's hopefully then I get to go back to Vietnam in Summer of 2011 then! Or should I apply for Summer Quest? I don't know, it so hard to decide!

- Any Pig

Saturday, July 17, 2010, 10:03 PM
reality check

it's easy to toss out a trash, but it's hard to toss out a friend, but I'm ready to toss them out of my life

It's time I have to clean the house, once again... I don't like that :(

- Any Pig

, 3:03 PM
a friend isn't like a friend, a family isn't like a family

Hey there you guys, it's me again Xiu :)!
I will try to update my blog once in a while. I just felt I need to get back to my blog and give it some venting.

This summer has been treating me well, I'm not having a lot of fun though, because I can't go to places or don't have anyone to hangout with. A person without a job or not with a lot of money can't go anywhere lol... Thank you for summer though, it game me an opportunity to understand myself and people around me. Like I always talked about my friend Chin and I always have an issue. I have been thinking for more than 3 years if she was really my friend. Thank you for this summer giving me a lot of time for thinking. I have finalize my thoughts.

Chin is just a classmate, an acquaintance for me, no more of those cheesy words such as BFFs or friends. People change throughout time, and she did, I did as well. Even though we have known each other since 3rd grade, she never show her true-self. Yes she was the secretive one, and I'm the expressive one. During Sophomore year was when it all started to change. All of a sudden she became more open, but the way I view her openness wasn't herself, in a way she seemed fake to me. Now she have new friends I hope her the best, but I will not want to be a part of her life anymore. (man this sound like I'm dating her or something LOL, it's not like that!)


Now that I'm done with the friend part, it comes to a downfall with my family as well.. I don't know what's the problem between my mom and dad. Even though they haven't argue in front of me or arguments I haven't seen yet. I think they're just tired of each other, my mom just want to go back to Vietnam after my sister & I have a life and finish with school. I just feel that my dad always complains about every little things, that annoys my mom a lot, because she's tired from work and doesn't want to hear all of those stuffs.

Even though my dad is my dad, I just don't feel that fatherly love from him. All he cares about are his flowers, and my cousin Angie... Since Angie is one perfect missy, who has a family, who loves to garden just like my dad. It just seems like he cares about her more and my aunt (Angie's mother) than he does for his own family.

I don't know, every time I think of these two things I'm just hurt...

- Any Pig

Sunday, July 4, 2010, 11:52 AM
For the memories of Ông Nội (grandpa on father's side)

Rest in peace Grandpa Bo. Well you have been resting in peace for like... idk, 5years(?). You were one of my favorite grandparent, cause I didn't get to know the other two, since you know they were like past away... &I was your favorite granddaughter :), I'm sorry if I have disappointed you in those past 5 years. I miss you though ông nội. T-T


One other thing though I'm pissed at my sister, and it's fourth of July.


FUCK.

- Any Pig

Monday, June 14, 2010, 10:54 PM
venting out things is such a good thing

Right when you need a twitter it doesn't work for me... How can I vent my feelings out? I haven't been using my blog for a LONG time, and it's time to fix its, look like seriously LOL.

I'm  happy that I still have this blog to be able to vent my feelings out, instead of depending on facebook or twitter a lot. It's really hard to tell my feelings to every of my "friends". I'm really happy that I can have this place, so I would like to THANK YOU BLOGGER FOR THIS :)!

To start... school is almost over, which is good news for me. I don't really want to face anyone right now, esp in school. I don't even feel like going to school for the next two days... all we do there is just sit in the classroom, watch movies or play cards.

I don't really feel like telling this whole thing, but please don't worry about me, IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL. I'm just making it as a big deal lol... Just for me to type something this long for such a long time has already relieve my chest a lot. It's just a problem between the heart is ruling over my mind? I hate when that happens. It will go away when school is over, so don't worry :).

World Cup 2010 is here, and is happening, so happy :D!

- Any Pig