for sometime I think I'm not myself... I feel like I'm just a body walking... but no soul. I don't even have a brain... I'll try to remember the lyrics "You are born for no reason" But I just feel why am I here...

*sigh* it's 9.55 AM right now, and at 11PM I'm going to leave to visit Shahina :D~ (maybe) & go swimming with my friends :)~

but I'm not feeling well lol. I just got prepare for everything... & today I suppose to return stuffs with my sister around 10PM or 11PM. I don't even want to go with her anymore.

okkies here is what happened. I got prepare with the cooler etc~ where I got it from my sister's truck (car) then I found she got the book 'Breaking Dawn'. So I thought why is she buying this? She never told me this, she never told me she is a fan of Twilight of stuff...

so i went up to her room to get my 'Hello Kitty' purse to cover the camera. & to also ask why she bought that book. I asked her "Did you bought the breaking dawn book? she didn't answer me, until i ask her like 3 times she said "Well if you saw that bought in my car what do you think?" & I ask her "Did you bought this book to read for fun or for school?" she didn't answer me again until i ask like sometimes... She said no. at that time in my mind why the hell she is like this? so i asked "why didn't you answer me until i asked you like thousands of time?" she said "you asked it with force (something like that, i forgot the word) & you said it in a rude way"

It wasn't really like this (since I forgot some part or the words she really said like "quote to quote") but I was upset. Like I mean... ok, I cried lol. But I just can't believe her she never answer me until i ask her like thousand of times... LIKE WHAT THE HECK! she always answer her friends' questions right away but not me. like what does she consider me.

& I'll promise (try to promise) myself to not ask her anymore, it's a waste of my time while i can get ready to go & hang out. I just have enough. The only reason why i ask her about the book. was because she have her homework in College, where she has to read about 4 books, & I bet she didn't finish none of them <<".

I'm just thought that book 'Breaking Dawn' was one of the book she has to read, so maybe I can help her by reading the book, so if she have any questions for help then just ask me. (my sister is the type of person who tell her friends to help her out a lot. & I don't want her to ask her friends like this. oi~ maybe no one will understand me lol)

Anyway, weeping me is gone, I'm finish. I still don't know if you consider me being rude etc just to ask those questions. but I know I'm the type of person that don't know how to be sweet, i mean look I AM A TOMBOY (*ahem* that is sensitive) <<". & everytime i ask something it will be serious.

She have been my sister for like what 8 years? (the other years when we were in our hometown we didn't even talk to each other long story~.) Now i know she is this URGH! i don't know what word to describe her, but just URGH!

& about going to returning the 'stuffs', I'm not going with her. Just enough is enough. *sigh*

I'll go for now... It's 10.28AM (that took me a long time to type this lol) but C'ya~ maybe I'll tell what happen today ^^~!

- Any Pig

PS: UPDATE SONG ^^~! I'm not in the mood for being emo hehe.
[NEWS - Sono Egao Boku ni Misete]

I love the lyric ^^~ make you feel like you're here for a reason PAHAHA! AGAIN!! KAYE UNNIE SHARED ME THIS SONG :DDD!! hehe I share this with Rei Unnie since I know she is... urm emo xD~ let's just say that ^^~ But she is smiling now :D~ & is going to give me her version of her singing HOOT~ :DDD~

here is the lyric ^^ ENJOY!!

NewS - Sono Egao Boku ni Misete
Credits For Lyric: [www.megchan.com]

Even when you feel powerless
And want to hang your head
I know you can find something
You can do for someone else

You weren't born
For no reason
Turn on the light of the world
With your own hand

I want to find it more than overflowing words
Your smile, that one smile
Spread it through the world

Show me that smile