lol i knew it, i fucking knew it. but i'll try to calm down hehe, i dun want to break their relationship (:. i'll try to ignore this and go on with my life lol, cause it ain't my problem anymore. should of email her that yesterday! but watever ^^" JUST WATEVER! but still i'm jealous! not that she gets to date lol, just he got more attention than me D:. fuck it.

if my sister think i knw then LET IT BE! if she still think i'm dumb not knwing she is dating then LET IT BE! let she think i'm dumb, while i actually knw the answer lol. if you sis. actually read this then you must be shocked cause your stupid sister does knw what's going eh? fuck it.

i'll keep acting stupid to her and see about it. i want to be cold hearted to her, but she is my sister. i depend on her to tell stories to and to share stories too. but she have to listen to some other person's story. so fuck it.

if my friends and classmates think i'm a weirdo and crazy or stupid, cause i talk to myself. then i'll let them think i'm crazy, a weirdo, and stupid. who can i share my story too eh? even my deepest story i can't tell to my friends cause it's not the right moment. ahh what a dumb ass i am lol *crazy laugh* maybe you're the only person thing that i can share my stories to huh? *stuffy nose makes me hard to breathe oi~*

got a bad grade in math lol and in writing and science. *sigh* now i'm going to leave this school with bad grades WHOO HOO!!

i really want to end my life, with the things i have created now lol. i dun have a future, i don't knw where to step. which one is the right choice lol. *sigh*

oh oh one thing i'm happy about was i beat Chin in chess ;D, guess like Sha wasn't the last person i'm going to tell lol it was you (bloggie)

going to watch "We Got Married" to cheer me up ^^


-BRB?-

lol still have that jelly feeling. HM!
i remember she said "Why does it always have to be you?"
ahh i see knw, yes i do remember all those lines the words people say bad things to me. i maybe forget it but i'll remember for it forever, i think... lol if you dun want me to deal with your problems, or bother you requesting you to do that and this. fine i'll stop, i'll try to sis. *sigh* dun feel sorry for me, cause i dun care. I DUN CARE! I DUN CARE!!! i'm really trying not to care. why do i have to born with this personality eh? *sigh* *slap self* oww T-T but i wish someone can slap me. so i can be awake that i have to be by myself and let no one help me.

i hate to be born. now i get the reason why i wrote my short story like this lol. "♪♫ _T R A C I N G B A C K; to life ♪♫ " is the name of it, i think i'll post it on wed. i knw the grade already lol. stupid me failing most of the class. now i want to win an award to get a +10% T-T.

i got "C" (77%) because they are not like me lol. they dun knw me, they dun knw my life, they dun have connection with me. i thought she can trust me. just like JJ trust with ShinKyung. but guess not :). she doesn't trust me with her stories then fine i won't force her. that's how life goes so bull shit. i want to jump into the water, and taste the last breath of air, while drowning in the water lol. but this is just a story -O-

that's how life goes.

:EDIt:

just got this and i reread this like 3 times, trying to think this isn't a conceit reply... what do you think?

Quoted from m,

O.K., these are great. I'm liking the last two songs especially. We have a Song down. They're two songs collided, but maybe we'll add one more. Not sure yet, I'll have to talk to d about it. Thanks for the suggestions. I think we're fine now. You don't have to find anymore songs. Thank you

the first time i read this i thought this was mean, can't she just give me smilies like ^^ or :). i dun knw lol

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today i talked to Wurlly, she helped me almost forgetting everything thank you onion! by talking about our first love <3 lol kk ^^ that's enough info lol gonna finish "We Got Married" Guess like my stalking level went up = DDD. now i'm in level 4! WOOT HOOT~

- Any Pig

PS; updated song :)
Artist - Loveholic
Title - Shingiru (in Korean)
Title Also Knwn As - Shinkirou (in Japanese)

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