hmm i'm doing my homework and i'm scare that i'll not finish :S so i'll cont. my thought at 8pm O-O?

well i was thinking about people that regret, or hate for their family for making them fat D:. well when i was small around 5th grade urm... 11 year old i looked cubby and fat, really i was <<" and i was overweight. hey i'm not gonna lie lol. and i always complained to my family, and my genes. because on my mom side, her gene/family's gene is fat/overweight. so everytime my family or other said "You look fat" and i would say "yea it's my mom's side fault!"

now i notice that's it's not their full fault, even though they feed me 'oily food' like chicken fried rice and all crap junk food. some part it was their fault, but still this isn't an excuse for me anymore. like "oh my it's my family fault to born me this way, i'm not gonna do anything." if i keep not doing anything, i'll die, with bad health! and if i want to enjoy my life till it last, and actually die peacefully i need to do something about it. for the past 4 years i have been ignoring my health conditions and just get fat. being my lazyself.

i want to do something about it, just forgetting about my family fault. because if in the end i'm fat and crap, it's my fault that i get myself like this. That was then, this is now. my family can feed me when i was 1-12 like that, but the rest of my life i bet to 13 through 30 or more that i take care of myself. i need to take care of myself, not other. even though i still live with my family and they cook un-healthy food, i have an option not to eat it, or cook something else. so it's my life, and i have to change it. so i can't just put ALL the blame on them, i have to put the blame on me too. yea i started to run yesterday, i need to be healthy D<.

-BRB-

ahh after that chaotic day yesterday, where i was hyper of DBSK in US. now i feel nothing, i just feel it's another concert they are doing, where fans are screaming, and stuff. what i'm really wondering is how they are responsing to the mass of fans then have here and all over the world. *sigh* i wish i can stalk on them xD, and say "An-eyo hope say yo~ Jae Joong, Changmin, Yoochun, Yunho, and Junsu" ^^ then after i'll be thinking, if they will say i'm korean xD. since when i say Hi in korean it was PERFECT! yea one day, where we went to Eliza's house and do our project. the owner of the building walked in, Mary said hi in korean. i was shocked that we got caught, i didn't knw what to say so i copy wat Mary said xD. yea and the lady thought i was korean, in some way :S. it was cool hehe. Yoochun looks Italian by the day = D, and Jae Joong/Changmin looks HOTTER by the day. where Yunho/Junsu looks CUTER by the day hehe.

well yea as i said i got a hair cut, and the bangs are like short D:. i look like a FAT FATGOT = =" really i do. i want to mess up my hair when it's wet. but once i was dry it was to it's normal self again D:. really don't like it, but i look decent so i'm okkie hehe.

my family well Parent and I. my sis got her wat so called "project", project my ass. yesterday she had her "group project" and she bought home her Bday cake, chips, coke, and cookies. yea she said her friend suprised her for the food. watever~ on the day of your Bday they celebrate it, then on thursday they gave you a cake, now they give you more food and fatty stuffs. i'm sick of her now just URGH! but yea we went shopping for next week food. nothing really special, just i wanted to get a new shoe, but i guess next week then :S. since it's like 15 days of school left lol. pretty cool you can say hehe.

Rei Unnie shared some clips and VDO of Hollywood Bowl. where we were talking about Moon Hee Jun, and she said wat songs he was sang. now i'm in love with Generous Tree soo pretty, it's a mix of Romeo and Juliet's A Time For Us and his type of rock = D. the other song 'Obsession' the first time i heard it was like 1 week ago, i didn't like it. but now once i took my time and look at the MV it's soo funny hehe. you guys should watch it too = D!

but when we got home from shopping, i cleaned the freezer. since it's kinda broken. because everything in it was melting D:. so i clean it, which i hope the freezer won't be broken anymore = =". i'm just scare everything in the house will become useless then we have to spend money and buy new stuff :'( i notice the freezer was melting cause i took an ice cream bar, that my dad bought today in the morning. and the bar was melting = =", gosh i can't even enjoy that ice cream lol.

just sort of finish my HW, well the ones i have to finish by tomrw xD. so it's cool~ well i forgot to bring that progress report = =", meaning i have to stay in for afterschool. there Mr. B will say "Why didn't you bring it? You're not this type of student that forgets things" well i'm sorry i have bad memory D< CHEESE!! BUT! unless i have to go early tomrw, for two purpose the math project and two to get that progress report. i can ask the people to get my progress report, and if they allow me, i'll give it for my dad to sign it. if not i'll have to stay afterschool D:. let's hope the plan will work ^^" ~>

Wurlly are you alritie O-O"? we haven't been talking to each other a lot, since i'm busy with my life lol and her too ^^". but today i have a feeling that i should visit her LJ, which i did, and there she updated her LJ with a post saing "I could cry T_T. I'm excited, mad, pissed something something" i was like DARN! i'm soo un-update with the person that's soo nice too me = =" but Chepi replied to her post. so maybe she doesn't need me after all O-O"?

i need to go to sleep so i can go to school early at 6:45am D:. yea i'm charging my iPod, so my mouse isn't working rite now xD. i'll add more details tomrw, if i remember wat happened today hehe ^^"

Good Luck For Me O-O"? :)

- Any Pig

PS; Updated song!

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