I guess cause of stupid school, I won't be blogging as much as I did last time :/. Maybe it's because after school I get tired sleep, and do my homework. but! I REALLY REALLY need to fix my schedule, cause I don't want to eat&sleep after I get home, by then I'll wake up at 6PM, which ain't good!

esp. If I have tons of homework, I'll take for HOURS! I mean more than 6 hours, last time it took me like 1hour just for Chem (answering FIVE questions =-=). In APUSH, it's harder, cause now we gonna have to do one essay per week, and TONS of reading (which I'm really slow at lol!).

In school everything seems to be an okkies, just the friendship seems to break apart 8(. From the starting of Saturday (last week with the service hour), Chin seems to not open herself to us, I mean like she think us as a Classmate than a friend. ShaSha now doesn't want to talk to her, cause she's pissed.

I feel betrayed. Like I said before, there are MANY TIMES that I feel betrayed from her. One time during this summer go to this post: i'm fine. There's lots more.

Even my sister say one day to me "I feel Chin isn't a good friend." Cause during this Summer, I just found out that we have Chem. homework to do over summer. I told Chin&ShaSha about it, so they can know. So ShaSha doesn't know, but Chin replied to me "Oh I know already, because my aunt (Mary) emailed me about it." (AND SHE DIDN'T TELL ME?) I mean I thought we were friends, we tell to each other about everything. But she just keep everything to herself.


ANYWAYS. This week she have been really awkward, I mean to the max. When we had a field trip this Wednesday, she barely talked to us. We three didn't even sit together, I think it's because she doesn't know how we're going to sit together, that's why she sat with Manal (Chin's new best friend :() in the bus.

But this is the situation that I felt Chin was inconsiderate.

So ShaSha saved the sit where Angie (Chin's other new best friend) is sitting for me, I was suppose to sit there. So here I walked it, and ShaSha said "Phuong, Phuong sit here!!" (she said it every loud *pointing to the empty sit*. I was trying to rush to sit in that seat. Suddenly, Chin saw Angie, and she said "Angie sit here" *points to the same empty sit*. Because I'm a nice person, I let Angie sat there. I feel so disappointed in Chin *sniff sniff*.

Later on, ShaSha said to me that she saved that seat for me -sighs-, Thank you ShaSha ):).

Also in Art, she suddenly came to my sit, opened my pencil box, get the lead pencil, and then asked "Oh can I use this?" Urm... let's look at this situation, you took it like you're going to use it what's the point of saying no?

There are more, that are piling up. I don't want to bad talk about her, WHICH I AM! But really I'm feel so betrayal, even when my sister say to me about Chin not being a good friend, I didn't believe her words, because I know Chin ain't like that.

To end this fuss I'm having in my mind, I'll write a letter, after this (by hand), and will give it to Chin, so she can read, cause if we talk --she doesn't have enough time, internet ain't good. Letter is the best!


I also had a dream today (at least I think it is a dream? cause it felt real!), that Chin was crying.

That's shocking, cause really she made me cried 2 times. Last time, I forgot but I emailed her saying "If you don't feel like being friends, please don't act cold to me, because we can be classmates." Something around being classmates, instead of being strangers.

I don't know what Chin think of ShaSha&I are, but I WILL find the answer!

- Any Pig

PS: UPDATE! [Yamapi - Daite Senorita]
To be honest I haven't really listen to a lot of songs, only the old ones, like DBSK. I really miss them being together, which I HOPE they'll be together, stupid SME! I really miss their voice as a group. Even though the Soulmates are singing together, while Yunho&Changmin are acting ._.;

OH! About the song lol, I like it & it's from Kurosagi, the drama 8)! Yamapi is H-O-T :X!