Hey there you guys, it's me again Xiu :)!
I will try to update my blog once in a while. I just felt I need to get back to my blog and give it some venting.
This summer has been treating me well, I'm not having a lot of fun though, because I can't go to places or don't have anyone to hangout with. A person without a job or not with a lot of money can't go anywhere lol... Thank you for summer though, it game me an opportunity to understand myself and people around me. Like I always talked about my
friend Chin and I always have an issue. I have been thinking for more than 3 years if she was really my friend. Thank you for this summer giving me a lot of time for thinking. I have finalize my thoughts.
Chin is just a classmate, an acquaintance for me, no more of those cheesy words such as BFFs or friends. People change throughout time, and she did, I did as well. Even though we have known each other since 3rd grade, she never show her true-self. Yes she was the secretive one, and I'm the expressive one. During Sophomore year was when it all started to change. All of a sudden she became more open, but the way I view her openness wasn't herself, in a way she seemed fake to me. Now she have new friends I hope her the best, but I will not want to be a part of her life anymore. (man this sound like I'm dating her or something LOL, it's not like that!)
Now that I'm done with the friend part, it comes to a downfall with my family as well.. I don't know what's the problem between my mom and dad. Even though they haven't argue in front of me or arguments I haven't seen yet. I think they're just tired of each other, my mom just want to go back to Vietnam after my sister & I have a life and finish with school. I just feel that my dad always complains about every little things, that annoys my mom a lot, because she's tired from work and doesn't want to hear all of those stuffs.
Even though my dad is my dad, I just don't feel that fatherly love from him. All he cares about are his flowers, and my cousin Angie... Since Angie is one perfect missy, who has a family, who loves to garden just like my dad. It just seems like he cares about her more and my aunt (Angie's mother) than he does for his own family.
I don't know, every time I think of these two things I'm just hurt...
- Any Pig
